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Self pity: one of the worst and most toxic feelings to avoid at all cost
Nothing good will come of it (for extended periods of time). It’s like giving up, blaming everything but you, assuming you took no part in you miserable life. Not at all. This won’t help you, because in the end the only thing that really matters is achieving your mission and getting reward, yeah, your brain will reward you if you deserve it (drugs can help with this, but probably not in a good way). All the shitty thoughts you have boiling in your little head won’t serve anything if you don’t manage to bring them to the real world. Good or bad intentions and ideas, intense and frustrating feelings, rush of euphoria and happiness, all this is to make you act, move, interact with the environment. Think about it carefully and take action smartly. Because aside from all the written or unwritten rules, rights and duties there’s nothing left but you and what’s around you. There’s no law regulating what’s fair or unfair in nature, so don’t complain (this doesn’t mean you can’t take advantage of existing human laws and rules, use them if they are useful to you and you have them at reach). Others may harm you (and society and the environment itself) just because they can and by doing it they get a reward bigger than the consequences of it, which may very well be zero. Empathy, pity and compassion are human things that help the group, but some individuals have few of it, or you are not part of their tribe, so they may be hostile individuals to avoid or to battle. So in the end what really matters is achieving your objective and ultimately surviving (in a worth way). Do what you can and use what you have to achieve what you want. And cheer the fuck up, this really helps, without will, there’s no future. Things may get better, or not at all, so you may be totally screwed, but you’ll never be sure of it if you don’t keep struggling to see what’s up in the future, so biology tells you to move on no matter what, because if you are not able, natural selection will do its job and as everyone alive dies, it won’t be that bad or embarrassing. Good luck and now hurry the hell up idle loser!
#motivational shit, #random thoughts, #text,
The wet rain soaked the sinful city as she bemused but uncaring contemplated it through the window. Numb by the long dull but tiring day she didn’t want to go to sleep but live a fulfilling adventure to compensate the frustrating day she just went through. She was already tired and not in the mood to really do anything, but she could not stand it, overcame the tiredness and grabbed her bag, some money and a raincoat. She left the apartment building, picked a bus to another city location, a darker not so fancy one, passed through some moldy dark alleys and found an averagely clean wall from an old factory. There she graffiti-sprayed her personal whimsical artwork and contemplated it for some minutes, silently, as she regained some self stem. Then, tired, she lost the attention for the graffiti and diluted it in the wet atmosphere. The rain still soaking and purifying the grey city, which seemed less noisy in that moment, water flowing down monoliths of concrete, down the alley and entering the drain. A frog shows up and stares her. She realized it and “pop”, she abandoned the relaxed contemplative state she had acquired for a moment and realized she was cold, wet, hungry and tired. Then a homeless who had been quietly looking at her working praised her work. Satisfied, she decided it was time to come back. As she hadn’t anything worth eating in the fridge, she stopped in a cheap Chinese restaurant/tavern to eat something fast and drink some spirit. She deserved it. The tavern looked like where mafia henchmen hanged out after work. But she did not care, she was fine with getting lost in the city and staying close to all its realities. After all she was sort of an artist. Someone who tried to enjoy or at least feel every inch of its freedom. After the meal she went back to her apartment, for a moment she thought it would have been wiser to eat something more suited for an easy digestion and good sleep, but she forget about it and exhausted, got naked, brushed teeth, had a hot shower and went to bed to embrace the sweetest sleep.